Living Enlightenment

First Samadhi Experience of Nithyananda

Source : Ram-Dassbe-Here-Now

Aeon

Creating worlds, Universes ... that's what a game master has to do, before he can start inviting players for campaigning. Of course some Universes are offered as ready to use, like Tolkien Universe, Star Wars Universe, Forgotten realms, World of Warcraft, Michael Morcook Elric, Fritz Leiber Fafhrd and the Grey  mouser etc ... but the hard core game masters are the one who are creating their own Universes, Gary Gigax created Greyhawk and many legends and lore.

Today we are fed by the media into thinking that our world is about to end. To the extent of making 2012 the year of the Apocalypse ; which it is of course. The Year of the great revelation, the year when we start to open our eyes.

The miracle is to believe that we can create our own world, our own Universe, just like the game masters.

There is the world we see, and the unseen worlds.

There is the actions we see and the unseen actions.

We are all in a "dream" - but funnily enough when we think of dreaming we automatically think of an etheric realms because that's our daily experience of what dreaming is ... while actually it's the other way around, the dream is the sluggish materialistic part of our life that began at birth and end at death - that's the dream, the unreal part is the part we think is real and vice verse. We are dreamed, when we die we wake up as the dreamer.

The moment you realize you can change things in your dream, is a pivotal moment. It happened to me a while ago, and the consequences are unfolding slowly but surely.

Thoughts are creating realities, even here in the material world, it just takes longer (2 or 3 months for something as basic as wanting a material object) - but it's instantaneous in dreams.

Now since there's no limit - where do we begin ?

Middle Way

When confronted with evil during a campaign, players are easy to use the sword, and cast spells - than to think it over.

what is the origin of evil, why does evil exists in the first place isn't the type of question your paladin, rangers and cleric would ask themselves... they'll just plunge their sword, throw their battle axe or smash their hammer on the head of the offender than to ask philosophical questions.

And that's pretty much why all role playing games are about fighting and sharing treasure afterwards.

But when neutral people such as druids or monks comes along  and add a balance in that constant fight between good and evil - then it gets a lot more interesting.

Why would a neutral character enter a fight ? for him good characters are just hot tempered for something that won't last - and evil characters are just obviously misguided - neutral characters know that it is of no importance and while the battle are coming, trees will be destroyed, people will die, widows and orphans are going to be made...

A neutral character knows that there is no winner or loser in these silly wars.

But somehow they would make alliance for short period of time, to shorten the damages. Neutral people are wise.

When you are playing a lawful good paladin, you see the neutral druid as a coward hippie with secular traditions - when you are a chaotic evil assassin you see the neutral druid as a potentially dangerous ally of the civilized establishment.

The evil dragon is only caring about his treasure, and would defend it against anybody - evil character included.

The evil necromancer would be only interested in gaining power and probably immortality - and would then attack anybody.

Because although the good characters in roleplay see cooperation as beneficial and wouldn't turn unto a friend, evil characters are very versatile and won't see any shame in treason. That's where game masters have a tough time when players are playing evil characters because the campaign will inevitably end up in a blood bath.

Choosing evil is the fastest way to shorten the life of your character.

While the good guy are struggling they have a better survival chance - technically because of the cooperation that they are willing to be bound with.

But eventually the good and the bad guy are always finding each other - while the neutral are actually the one building things that will endure.

Understanding that beyond good or evil, there is respect for life.

Why do you think the archetype of the druid is an old guy with a white beard ? that's because he has seen many battles, but from a distance.

Magician

Magicians and illusionists are in Role playing Games, the weak esoteric character that everybody likes to fight against but are scarcely playing.

Why ?

In Role Playing Games, playing a magician is a terrible experience, when you start you have essentially one spell, and very little hit points... which means, that you depend a lot on the group - there's very little chance for a magic-user to survive alone.

The cleric is much better, balancing fighting capacities, and healing spell. But the magic-user are getting powerful only at high levels, and then they're cool to play.

Teleportation, telekinesis, mind control, Wall of fire, Fireball, Magic Shield, they are all pretty impressive spell you won't get until 8 or 9th level.

The good thing about Magic-user though is the mystery that the game master can add to a campaign.
When introducing a complex item, a relic or a scroll, who's going to read and analyze it ... the barbarian ? the thief (also he could in some ways) but usually it's the magician, and then the quest can start.

In "the Hobbit" basically the character of Gandalf, represents that mysterious figure able to save the day, but who is missing most of the time, because he's out there doing some weird quests in parallel, I'd say that Gandalf is a perfect high level magic-user but a non player character. Because he's part of the story, his moves are actually having a consequences on the campaign's plot.

He is the enlightened one - working hand in hand with fate (represented by the game master). 

“When society reaches a stage where property confers rank, where wealth becomes the only source of virtue, passion the sole bond between man and wife, falsehood the source of success in life, sex the only means of enjoyment, and when outer trappings are confused with inner religion…then we are in the Kali Yuga—the Dark Age.”
—     Vishnu Purana, Book 4, chapter 24.

N. PabloTsunami: For its significant power and mystery the magician may be feared and also fear himself and his potential to do harm. Key words to understand this archetype are, intuition, knowledge, confidence, action, creation and mystery. More else clear examples of magician characters are Merlin from druidic legends, Gandalf and Saruman from Tolkien, Lord of the Rings saga, J.K Rowling main character Harry Potter and Neo of the Matrix trilogy.

What Happens If You Do Or Don't Ascend?

Or was it just an analogy ?
 

Illumined Mind

I woke up feeling that I had reversed somehow - that the inside me was the outside and the outside was inside.

It felt weird beyond measure.

We are all one

That thought alone needs to sink down for a bit.

What does that mean ? We are all one ?

When I see a billboard of "sexy lingerie" it's me the universe showing to myself a sexy part of me wearing sexy underwear to arouse myself ?

When I see a copyright notice, it's me the universe preventing me to use my own creation for my own benefit ?

When I resist the urge to give a 2$ to a homeless me ; I'm resisting self-love.

When I give 20$ for a piece of me materialized as a gift, I will offer to myself later - to enjoy seeing on me the good emotions of receiving a gift ?

When I'm in School learning a language I already know, to be able to speak to another expression of me in a foreign country ?

When I'm writing a blog for another self (hello self) who is also trying to figure out that we are all one.

When I'm asking a guru-me about a burning question related to me ; and I'm wondering if the answer I will give to myself is relevant, since I feel that I might not be able to receive it right now, because of my current state of awareness.

I'm currently typing on a keyboard-me, reading on a monitor-me, projecting thoughts from a collective mind, that reader-me already have in his collective mind, but is reading now in an effort to re-awakening his own remembrance of this fantastic revolutionary idea that we are all one!

Gradually

During a role playing game, we are all sitting around a table, one is setting up the game direction, the others are playing, pretending to be in the game master's universe - which is in his mind.
The players and the game master are living in an illusion, and following very basic combat, physical rules are able to perform actions, and feeling emotions (fear, hope, anger, sadness, greed, compassion, etc ...) over hours of what would look like a conversation.

Momentum

Video credit : Sudevi (Ma Nithya Sudevi)

Today is December, 21st - that particular day when people would supposedly ascend.

What does that say about us ? We are so thirsty, desperate for something new for some real changes, that we are able to buy anything that goes into that direction.

Now that this day is almost over, I can feel a bit disappointed, because unfortunately no change (or at least no drastic visual changes) happened.

I have a little confession though, I was pretty sure that something would happened, just because we were so many to believe that something would. Like a self proclaimed prophecy.

The lesson is that if I want change, I'll have to make them myself ; you know the hard way...

There's no shortcuts. Or is there ?

The Wheel of Life

We are all one, what we seen in other is ourselves.
The wheel of life, is ourselves.
Learning to love ourselves, is the key to love others ; because there's no others, there's just ourselves.

Start to see your surrounding as a gigantic flow of energy, a infinite soup of molecules and we are floating in it, we are part of it - the brain is acting as an interface trying to find limits and draw frontier, to separate zones. But when the brain can let go, because I'm out of body, dreaming or experiencing alternate state of consciousness - the dictature of the brain is no longer active.

The Wheel of Life - Aesthetics of Suffering and Salvation: The Buddhist Wheel of Life symbolically represents how all sentient beings, who have not practiced the Dharma and liberated themselves, are bound in a cycle of existences whose very nature is suffering. The symbolism is depicted through a series of pictograms that are meant to act as a powerful mnemonic device for both the serious practitioner and the layman. The Old Masters prescribe that one should think about this diagram and focus on it day and night so as to never forget its meaning. According to Shri Dharmakirti "One should intently and seriously contemplate the meaning of this wheel. If possible, one should put up a pictorial representation of it, if necessary in solitary retreat, until its significance sinks in. Once this happens, the wish to be free of this mindless suffering is spontaneous and constant. An apt comparison would be with a sick man, who while suffering from a chronic painful ailment, discovers after a thorough medical examination that the reason for his illness is some regular component of his diet. Such a person would immediately try to remedy the defect."

Procrastination

Procrastination, the art of pushing things back in order to contemplate ourselves lamenting about not doing things, and being powerless.

Procrastination is resisting a desire, by fear of not being able to fulfill it, by fear of not being good enough.

It's a pesky habit.

It gets it's source in the fear of criticism, in judging ourselves harshly.

And  it has rules :
- it only feeds on your inactivity, and thrive on it
- it requires being in a passive, consumerist mood

And it is simply killed, by action.
Any action done without judgement, procrastination is gone.

Open a document and start typing gibberish
Open a blank canvas and start scribbling
Might work

Having a work routine, and deadlines, being busy get things done, because it act as a magic plate armor - that won't let self pity, self criticism, self centered passivity.

But what does Procrastination says to you ?

Maybe it's time for you to change your style, your way of working, maybe something isn't perfectly aligned in your life, maybe you need to reflect on something ?

Then meditation would help, dedicated time for yourself, to pass in review all the good things that you have done so far, and where it leads you, what feels like the next logical step for you in that moment ?

Trees produce fruits, some have funny shape, some are light, some are heavy, some are tasty, some aren't - Act like a tree, let go of your own inventions, creation, writings, blogging, artwork, movies, comic-book, vlogging, podcast, graffiti, thoughts...

Don't judge, don't pressure the creative conduct before the fruit is even there

5 Procrastination Strategies to Become More Productive

New Beginning

This old patriarchal establishment is falling, the old reign of fear, and control is nearly over.

There's nothing to fear, the priority is to find your own bliss, to thrive to know yourself, to fall in love with yourself.

This has been like a forbidden thing to do, to love yourself, in many religions it is even condemned, but Love start in the self. If you love yourself, you can love other, or through the love of yourself, you can love the whole Universe.

That's the mystery of Loving God - God is the source, you love yourself, you love God, you love God you love yourself. It's as simple as that. And by loving God, you love all his manifestations, being trees, chicken, dogs, cats, your neighbors, your mother, your kids, even your enemy since he's also part of Source.

Source is what Jesus called "The Father" - Source is that concept that the Chinese named as the unnameable - the Tao that can't be named. There's nothing that isn't part of the Tao.

The illusion is about to fall, we are no longer looking for crutches, for guides, and paternalist figure, we are now able to be in alignment and look into ourselves and love, create.

There's no need for other to give approval, or permission, by having cleaned ourselves, and being aligned with are aligned with source, and source is our guide.

I love it!

The Apocalypse of Peter -- The Nag Hammadi Library: The Savior said, "For a time determined for them in proportion to their error they will rule over the little ones. And after the completion of the error, the never-aging one of the immortal understanding shall become young, and they (the little ones) shall rule over those who are their rulers. The root of their error he shall pluck out, and he shall put it to shame so that it shall be manifest in all the impudence which it has assumed to itself. And such ones shall become unchangeable, O Peter."

Dreaming experience

William Buhlman

Still trying to figure out - how to get of the body. Last night I dreamed that I met an old colleague of mine (from 10 years ago) and he was kind of upset that I never contacted him, nevertheless he invited me to his home, where I could see his wife and kids, and then it was like I was back at my old job. We were sent into a customer site (like we used to) and it was a mess, and we sort things out - then we switched into one of the main office where there was a secretary (and now that I'm awake I know that she never actually was working there, but during the dream it was like I knew her) and we chat.

I failed to asked the question if "I was dreaming" ? - so the dream went through.

The overall emotion during this dream was a bit hectic and stressed.

Why is that dream are like taking the train or watching a movie, without being able to change the story line (of course I mean by default, that is what the experience is mostly a weird little story and boom we're awake) why is that, what's the purpose of that ?

Now, I was thinking maybe I wasn't clear on what I really want out of a lucid dream (since an actual obe seems a bit out of reach at my current advancement) and why I want it.

Answers, is what I'm looking for - I want to meet my guide, want to ask what is my life mission. What is my spirit animal, what were my past life incarnations, the soul group that I belong to, am I a Pleiadian. What is about to happen in 2 weeks, what are ideas, thoughts, what are we ? what happen that particular day 12 years ago ? What should I do with my life to be in alignment? How can I love myself?


Lately I've listened to another radio show with Teal Scott, and the host (?) said something about dreams - that during dreams we're entering a place to meet other people (dead or alive) - and to me it seems that dreams is more a personal place, a very much private sandbox where our thoughts are present, and we can dive into. Our thought can totally involve other people (dead or alive) but they are just thoughts not the actual person, which means that if I dream about Sudevi (which I incidentally did a few days earlier) ; It took place in what looks like a classroom, we were listening to some guy with a projector, and I heard somebody mumbling behind me, I turned and saw Sudevi, she was a bit upset because of something in the training probably, and that was it. Luckily enough she told in one of her video how to know for sure, if the dream is genuine or not, so I know for sure that it wasn't her.

During the radio show the host (?) also confirmed this idea that dreams are taking place in a lighter environment - so thoughts are acting a lot faster to manifest than on a denser place like 3D Earth, is something I quite agree with and also observed.

Which reminds me of that theory that thoughts have a weight ?!
And are actually getting lighter and lighter. A phenomenon called "Less thoughts more action" explained by Paramahamsa Nithyananda.

Teal Workshop

Yesterday I listened to this long radio show (above) featuring Teal Scott
and as always I've been delighted to hear Teal talking about her visions, about "Bliss", about her guide, higher self, and the importance of "self love"

Her vision is that we are all as human being co-creators of our reality and we were sent on 3D Earth as an experiment of our higher self - pretty much the same way as a teenager would play an avatar in a video games to solve puzzle and level up.

3D Earth is more or less like a sandbox for various experimentations.

Some of us wants to experience darkness, scarcity, being poor, being sick, and some have a lesson to learn ("what is it to feel compassion", "How is it to become Independent", "How to overcome an addiction", etc ...) and some are just letting the light shine through and are able to follow their bliss and let go.

How would such video game work ?

Basically as human being we have 3 ways to go - letting the light through (move up), stopping or resisting the light (moving down), and expressing desires (moving forward) - guilt is pushing things in the past (that would be moving backward, but since there's no way to move back in time, it's just stalling).

You only meet what you're a match with - if you are a high frequencies being you have a  match with successful, helpful, noble, wise people, if you are a match with low frequencies encounter you will experience suffering, struggle, scarcity etc ...

Our emotions are acting like a compass to check where we stand.

I guess, that would be roughly the game engine, and it will start scrolling from right to left.

There were a lot of revelation in that radio show - Teal is debunking what "Karma" is, that Death is nothing to fear, that emotions like anger, revenge, hope, etc ... are like steps on a ladder - and fear is actually a low vibration frequency (that looks like static).

Resisting fear is not an efficient way, because it focus on what you fear.
Which isn't very intuitive, Teal is teaching that allowing (letting go) is a better way to overcome fears.

Basically, the most important thing to understand is that "Self Love" is the best way to succeed at this game. And that is in no way selfish, because since we are all one, loving ourselves, means we love everybody and everything.

Now to understand that last part, you have to know that Teal is clairvoyant, clairaudient and actually doesn't see any separation between things (like we do) - she sees more or less energies flowing and auras around people, also thought forms.



And finally after all these bonanzas of incredible discoveries I was very excited when I read that Teal is organizing a live stream event this Saturday (Dec. 15th, 2012) :

More information at
http://www.thespiritualcatalyst.com/TealScott-Workshops.html

Destroy

Follow up to the Patriarch's post
This poster quoting Chris Hedges 

Under the control of Patriarchs

Yesterday I dreamed about Patriarchs - the fact that we (as humanity) barely reached the level of independence.

As when we are bored we look for professional entertainer,
When we want protection, we look for authoritative figure (like military, police, government)
When we want to learn things, we don't even think that we're able to learn by ourselves, so we look for teacher
When we want to "speak" to God, we then need a religious representative 
When we are sick, we look for doctors - or any external people that will for sure tell us what to do!

and while you reading this and thinks it is absolutely normal ; because they are professional, and they know because they have studied, and ... blah, blah, blah

The result is that we are now dis-empowered. 

But then we bitch about the teachers, the politicians, the doctor, the police, the priest, the boss, ... because the teachers are subversives, the politicians are crooks, the doctor make mistakes, the police is brutal, the priest depraved, the boss greedy.


But we fail to see that we have asked them to be there, because we didn't want to be responsible for ourselves.

Sure, for a while the patriarchs were doing a good job in creating dependence toward them - but now, that we are pretty much under their control, the good father figure is now turning into a manipulative villainous tyrant.

The turning point I guess was working for profit instead of working for the wellness of everyone.

I like very much what Salma Hayek said regarding to religion :

The minute I started thinking it through, I realized all religions are a form of manipulation. And I started having problems with certain beliefs-like in Africa, where people are dying of AIDS and overpopulation, the Catholic Church is going over to convert them and take away the condoms! And I said, wait a minute.

source : hollowverse.com/salma-hayek/

How to be independent again ?

By studying everything, documenting, being aware, building, producing, taking  responsibilities for our action, by being active in general and accept that we will possibly make mistakes.

Because otherwise we're just consumers, we are passive and we wait for answers, taking no responsibilities.

True Nature

The more I read and the more I study the clearer it appears to me that angels, UFO,  are actually the same thing - historically it would make sense that when people saw being entirely made of light when there was little or no technology started to call what they saw 'angeloy' or angels - then nowadays we consider them as "unknown flying objects".

But they are the same : messengers

Actually Pleiadian are very often described as 'angelic' - I've heard that their "spaceship" could even camouflaged as cloud.

If we focus on the message instead of the nature of the messenger - what do we hear ?
What do they keep repeating time after time ?
What is their message ?

Love

A Brief Account of the True Nature of the UFO Entities: In our days, there has probably been no teacher who saw and understood all this more clearly that the great Austrian Dr. Rudolf Steiner (1861-1925), founder of the Anthroposophical Society. "Clairvoyant" from childhood, Steiner [claims he] saw into the other worlds and planes and saw deeply into the human heart, and no books or teachings are so relevant as his are to the crisis of mankind that is now upon us. His lectures throughout 1917, for example, show clearly that he foresaw, in their totality, the political, social, and military results and the police-state tyranny which would inevitably follow from the Russian Revolution, just as the "Lady" of the Apparitions at Fatima in the same year also did. Steiner foresaw what would result in the world as a whole from a materialistic science run mad: the development of "test-tube" man, "biological engineering" and other horrors; the deliberate creation and development of living monsters; and the soul-less, God-less, dehumanized, computerized, insect-like chromium and plastic slave world of "1984" that may now be at hand. According to Steiner, a tremendous and crucial round in the battle was fought out in the last thirty years of the 19th century and on the Inner Planes, between the Forces of AHRIMAN (the term he took over from Zarathustra) and the FORCES OF LIGHT.

Responsibility

This post is about taking responsibility

"We think therefor we are"

Everything that has happened to me so far was the result of my thoughts and to be fully in accord with this I have to take responsibility for all of it. That means if I'm sick, I wanted to be sick - If I'm depressed that's what I want.

It helps for me to keep a journal - (this blog is just the skimming part of it, "la creme de la creme").

My last intent was to have an OBE - during last nights I felt my left hand gone asleep - and it was disagreeable,  maybe the sleep paralysis starts by the extremities ?! which would explain the little finger trick ?!

During last night dream I expressed a thought and like Albert Taylor said - it had an immediate impact, the dream changed, but it cut short because since the situation changed the way I wanted, I didn't know what would follow, so I woke up.

It's like if you want to direct the dream you have to be prepared to run a new story - meaning that the story has to be prepared in advance - or that even more than being imaginative, you have to be good at improvisation too.

In my last dreams I was immersed or walking in the mud - and this is symbolically because in the dream we're very light, things can change in the blink of an eye - as in what we call "reality" things are sluggish, the events are unfolding slowly. Which is good since we are here to discipline our thoughts!

While Teal Scott is repeating in her lecture the fact that we are indeed creating our own reality with the thoughts, or the focus we put on our environment, because our thoughts influence our vibrations and therefor attracts things with a matching vibrations.

Albert Taylor is talking about how during an OBE (out of body experience) thinking about something make this thing appear straight away - implying that we have to prepare by controlling our thoughts.

I developed a  small trick during the day, when some thought I don't want starts to unfold in my mind - I immediately "Mark it as spam" and it disappears. So far it works.

I continue to ask myself "Am I dreaming ?"
  

6. Healing and More Healing | Bridge to Earth: I found that, for me, healing came about through a deep self-examination and taking total and complete responsibility for myself and for everything that happened in my life.

What do you see, when you close your eyes ?

As far as my first OBE experience, after reading a couple of chapter from Albert Taylor's book - I think it would be beneficial first to become aware during dreams.

As an exercise given by Albert Taylor, he'd recommend that during the day - we ask ourselves if we're dreaming? and that's now part of my routine to do so.

In current dreams I'm walking in what looks like mud, sometime I'm knee deep in it, sometime just my shoes.

I quite  can confirm that my memory while dreaming, is different than the memories I have when awake - as for example the shoes I was wearing during my last dream have been thrown away long ago (6 or 7 years ago) but I liked them very much.

My behavior in dream also is a bit different from the one I have awake.

Another important thing to develop is Imagination - the ability to invent or form a mental picture.
And another important skill is the ability to hold the focus, discipline thoughts.

Lecture: Man As A Picture of The Living Spirit: Hence it is interesting to see a book recently published by a Cingalese, an Indian of Ceylon, The Culture of Souls among the Western Nations, wherein the author says to the Europeans, in effect: Since the Middle Ages your knowledge of the Christ has died out. No longer have you any real knowledge of the Christ, for he alone who can look up into the spiritual world can have real knowledge of the Christ. Hence you must first let teachers come to you from India, from Asia, to teach you Christianity again. You can actually read it in this book. A Cingalese Indian says to the Europeans: Teachers must come to you from Asia; they will be able to tell you what Christ really is. Your European teachers no longer know it.

Out of Body Experience

It feels for me as an Out of Body Experience is the next step.

I still feel that I'm stuck now - having read all these materials (from Master Tony's guide, Rudolf Steiner, Terence McKenna, Sudevi and lately Teal Scott) - it's like all theory and no practice.

This afternoon I tried, sit down in a relative dark room and set my intent to leave the body and be aware of the experience, then closed my eyes and imagined a sky - this was short - I just felt dizzy after a while when my mind relaxed a bit. Also felt like my body was unwilling to let go - and my mind was struggling as well.

I might buy Albert Taylor's book "Soul Traveler"

The vision faded

The coming of the ego was no accident, the Universe needed man to see himself separated from the whole.

Man being immersed in the illusion of separateness : he became lost in the maya.

This has a purpose, this is a necessary step in the evolution.

How can you know that smoking is bad ? because you smoked a lot, and saw it for yourself.

Now I see life in 3D as a flow of energy -- it comes and pass through everybody, and we all let pass this energy, or we resist it. It's all a giant pipe work.

There's little fun in role playing if the player know the campaign already, the fun comes with the surprises, the challenges, the riddles, the unknown.

But is there Freedom really ?

When you're playing a specific class (e.g : Paladin) with pre-determined alignment (Lawful Good) - in many situation you're supposed to act very rigidly, compared to a thief (Chaotic by nature) -- the freedom in D&D isn't about opening doors on the left or on the right then fight the monster in the room and get his treasure, this kind of boring campaign are the one that can be emulated by computer (through World of Warcraft, Age of Conan etc ...) where the only goal is to amass treasure and level up.

But you can feel the emptiness of any quests, the shallowness of materialism.

You don't learn anything, you just get better at playing that little insignificant part the computer lets you play.

The real fun of role playing is closer to acting, performing for a limited audience, but nevertheless.

If his character is leveling up and has many magic items the players behind aren't rewarded by anything - but when throw playing the character is set into interesting situations, and the emotions is there, that lead to the discovery of more than the character but the player's true face. While there isn't any bravery, any real combat, any real foe, or reward ... what is real is just the game.

Rudolf Steiner is repeating the same thing over and over, humanity is more than his physical aspect - materialism isn't an end to itself - the materialistic world we're living in - is not the goal.

Mankind will only thrive when it will focus on Spirituality.

If we take the character of Christ Jesus as an example, he didn't use his formidable talents to gain power or riches, his mission was to point in the sky direction and show us the real value of Life on Earth.

His message is eternal, while we're not ready to hear it - we can only embrace the religious aspect - the limited version that push people into churches hoping that somehow it will help the day we die to go to heaven.

But when we're ready Christ message is way more powerful, revolutionary completely mind blowing, Earth shattering - Love is the key, Love is what we're made of. And we either allow it or we resist it, that's all we do.

Lecture: Man As A Picture of The Living Spirit: Long, long ago, in an instinctive atavistic clairvoyance, mankind had vision and perception of these things. The vision faded. If he had kept it, man could never have grown free. The ancient vision was therefore darkened. In compensation, the Mystery of Golgotha came into earthly life. A sublime Being from the population of the Sun came to Earth.

--Rudolf Steiner

Diego

Ego is the result of evolutionary process - Ego is an illusion of separateness.
But without the Ego, there would be neither enlightenment nor awakening
In a previous time (Rudolf Steiner talks about Atlantean time) humanity had no ego and we lived in a "Golden Age"

This current period which comes to an end has discovered the ego - and this is introduced in the Bible by the "Original Sin" or as the "Fall".
It's the human ability to think for himself.
This doesn't mean necessary only bad things - without it there would be no language, no transmission of knowledge, no philosophy, and cultures, in a way no civilization.

We approach the end, because the Ego is now acting more and more pervasively - with a constant, permanent (and mostly useless) voice in the head.

The next stage is going beyond the ego - taming the ego.

Becoming responsible thinkers by remembering who we really are as human.

(This is more or less the transcript of the video above - in case the video is put down)

Etheric

Today I'll try to be more positive

What ideal situation would I prefer to the current one ?
What changes could I bring into the current situation that would drastically be beneficial ?

I dream of a clear room with just a computer and no distractions.
On the computer a text editor and a browser.
And I would write - and I would publish a book.

There would be silence and work.

But then I'll have to eat, require toilet breaks and some sleep.
That would be the bare minimum.

What if I won't publish any book.
Who cares anyway ?

I feel the need to write ; it helps putting my thoughts in order.

Since I wrote my advices to my 10 years old self - I keep thinking about reincarnation and the funny twist where I would stumble upon my old blog after I reincarnate and be able to read my ramblings from a past life.

Now, I see the act of writing as posting some clues to my future self. And it feels liberating.

To the point.

Be yourself!

How would I know this blog was myself from a past life ?!
I guess this would help - a pass-phrase from my current life - that wouldn't make any sense for anyone else - like an inside joke that I would be able to transfer from one life to another.

Something so personal, that reading it I would laugh and cry at the same time, and the eyes filled with tears would see in this so much of myself that it would be exhilarating.

Here goes, this is for me reader from the future : "Vitakava!"

I'll let you laugh and cry for now.


Lecture: Man As A Picture of The Living Spirit: For there were once upon a time on Earth very advanced Beings — Beings who did not put on physical human bodies as do the men of today. They lived rather in etheric bodies, yet for the men who lived on Earth at that time they were the great leaders and educators.

Recycling

Today I realized that I'm a bit stuck.

Time is flying like crazy, and I see my days passing without me doing anything ; I'm not creating, not writing, not drawing, not painting, not developing.

And I would like to, there's nothing more re-assuring than creating.

I could watch youtube video until I'm all blue in the face, or listening to music, or reading a book... But I'm craving for creation.

If I'm not creating I feel useless, worthless.

And why am I not creating ?
Because I feel that I don't have enough time to create - I'm constantly interrupted ; I just have 1 or 2 hours windows everyday and I feel that this isn't enough.

It's even worse than that - because until I decided to write down that post - I didn't even realized how stuck I was.

It comes all to this : not enough time, and endless irritating issues that are accumulating daily - not important things, just plain annoying little time wasting events that are filling up my days.

Also I realized that I'm obsessing over recycling - I can't throw away plastic box, paper and hold on old stuffs too. I'm hoarding and this is getting crazy.

It's like I'm surrounded by box filled with pizza packaging and plastic bottles.

I can't let go old stuffs, I can't go forward - These aren't negative things, they're just there - but they're accumulating and it seems that I can't breathe.

I guess I need to relax a bit.

A Buddhist Approach to Avoid Accumulation of Defilements - Sakyamuni Sambuddha Vihara (temple in Berwick) and Buddhist Vihara Victoria (Melbourne) Australia: "Don't take anything (negative) into your mind and let it become polluted. Keep them out, shut them out."

“Here is another way of finding inner space: Become conscious of being conscious. Say or think “I Am” and add nothing to it. Be aware of the stillness that follows the I Am. Sense your presence, the naked, unveiled, unclothed beingness. It is untouched by young or old, rich or poor, good or bad, or any other attributes. It is the spacious womb of all creation, all form.”

—Eckhart Tolle, A New Earth

Toward a new beginning

I remember when I was playing AD&D as a Game Master ; one task was to provide the players with a "believable" Universe.

In Chinese the word Universe is literally "space and time" - not only the GM has to provide cities, caves, castle, and other playground but also a time period.

Now to be consistent, the GM need to send the players into a sense of past and future - which means that during a campaign the players are going to defeat monsters and villains and level up. But the time could be elastic, some table away another group might be playing "Call of Cthulhu" and live in the 1920s.

Actually time would very much be related to what the GM and the players remember of what happened ; now if another GM would relay the players and offer them to play another campaign ; the new GM would have to play along, and assume the players are now in a further future. But apart from their levels,  new items and magic sword that the players would show he wouldn't know much of what happened in the parallel campaign.

But what would happen if the same GM would play with a different group of players - that haven't played that specific campaign?

What would happen after we die ?

Couldn't we be sent back in the past, like in the Novel "the Egg" (link found on reddit a while ago)
What if there's only one player in this game named life and this player is You (me) ?

Usually player who have been through a campaign - and died ; won't play the same campaign a second time because they would remember it - don't you find it funny that we are unable to remember our past lifes ?

The ultimate GM is erasing your memories.

Everything is mental, we are dreamed or thought by a Universe (GM) the only challenge for us is that what we call reality is the Universe dreams - we are also dreaming, but somehow we feel that our dreams aren't real ... because they don't last.

Now if during dreaming, you realize you can come back to the same places, and you can act, or change the course of the dream ...

According to Rudolf Steiner during dreams our astral body and ego depart from our physical and etheric body -- what if we are like "baby Universe" and our little dreams are our first stammers.

That would put the "Universe expansion" theory into a mind blowing proportion.

How to Build a Universe That Doesn't Fall Apart Two Days Later: The bulk of the messages elude our attention; literally, after a few hours of TV watching, we do not know what we have seen. Our memories are spurious, like our memories of dreams; the blank are filled in retrospectively. And falsified. We have participated unknowingly in the creation of a spurious reality, and then we have obligingly fed it to ourselves. We have colluded in our own doom.

Discipline

We are what we eat
We are what we drink
We are what we breathe
We are what we think

We have lived too long in our undisciplined thoughts and never recognizing why negative things come into our lives. The negative things in our lives can only be solved when it is recognized, not by presumptuous self-denial.... Can you, the reader, see the connection for yourself?

We are what we project
We are becoming what we want to be

Be careful of your thoughts, for your thoughts become your words.
Be careful of your words, for your words become your actions.
Be careful of your actions, for your actions become your habits.
Be careful of your habits, for your habits become your character.
Be careful of your character, for your character becomes your destiny.
--Author unknown 

Discipline your mind
Reduce your time watching TV


To discipline your mind you need to learn how to better control your thoughts. Positive thoughts call forth inner peace and negative thoughts disturb inner peace.

Start being conscious of what thoughts you're putting in your mind
Start being aware of what you're feeding your mind with

What we think we become

Since I've started to listen to Teal Scott ("Spiritual Catalyst" channel on youtube) ; I  realized how the action of allowing negative thoughts can alter a state of peacefulness - and how ignoring it (not resisting it) can be beneficial.
I'm doing it in a very relaxing way, but I select carefully what I'm going to watch or listen to. Some lectures are beneficial, some aren't.


Remember the 2 wolves.
You always ending up feeding one, so let this be the one you consciously want to feed.

Grim

I had recurrent dream last night, I saw a shaved female - she was in a very dark and dirty room, there was another poor creature being washed, and many other wretched people I couldn't even see - but only this shaved woman.


This was a grim scene - in dreams you feel the scene, there's no introduction, you just know - and for me it felt like this was an execution room - that shaved head woman was waiting her death, she was resigned and afraid.


Now after I woke up - I wondered what was that dream all about and I thought that I could have said to her that she was free - if I had been able to control my emotions, which were as dark as the room.


Appalling is the word.


If I'm ever coming back to that dream my intent is to free those people - to set them free.


And moreover there's something on my mind, the injustice that Mary Magdalene has been victim.
I found many readings where it's pretty clear that she had a major place in Jesus life.
The reason why the church made efforts to remove her from the gospel, and made effort to remove women from the priesthood is quite odd.

The blame of the original fall also falls on Eve - women are suffering because of the lack of men to take responsibilities.

Sure, when a woman is in position of power - things are handled differently.

I've read that among the change 2012 is bringing the women are coming back in strength - the Femen movement comes to mind, many spiritual guides also and it's true that even the men are a bit tired of the patriarchal system.

Gnosis

What is it to be Enlightened ?
Is there life after death ?
Is Reincarnation real ?
What is the Higher self ?
What are Ghosts ?

What is knowing ?
What is a thought ?
Can an idea die ?
What happen when we dream ?
What are dreams ?

Is there other dimensions ?
Is there parallel Universes ?
What is time ?
What is a paradox ?
What is duality ?

Insights into Gnosis: Gnosis in the widest sense is the "discovery" of inner Self as the true "I"

Self Worth

This is above is a video of Teal Scott ; she is known as "Spiritual Catalyst"

Her youtube videos are full of insights and very soothing information.

She is clairvoyant from the beginning ; which is rare - after watching many of her videos, I see a lot of parallel between her knowledge and Rudolf Steiner's teaching (who also was clairvoyant from birth).

Teal explains that before birth we have stated our intentions for this life (even our appearance, our parents etc ...) then we enter Earth and forget everything. Lucky for her, Teal remembered everything (much like Matias de Stefano).

She had a very difficult period in her life during childhood that left scars (which she covers by tattoos), and talks about it retrospectively as something that allow her now (during her workshop) to be able to understand and help people that went through really tough situation.

Teal sees life as a perpetual evolution (even achieving enlightenment isn't an end state) she talks about Astral Travel, multiple dimensions, rising of energies, accessing high frequencies, out of the body experiences, focusing on the positive, she is often talking about source (which could be understood as God or Tao).


During one of her discussion with Dwaine Hartman Teal compares a journey on 3D earth as a roller coaster ride -or entering school (quite similar to Matt Kahn description of Earth as an Angel Academy).

She says that effort (or forcing our-self to do something) isn't a good sign, we should focus instead on doing everything with Joy.

And it is true that in our modern life, if we're good at something we usually (and are encourage to do so) overdo it and become sick of it.

I will take an example (the only way to teach) - if a boy is gifted for music, he will have to play an instrument over and over, then will be encouraged to make concert and become a professional musician and he will get lucky if he's not sick of it.


Themes that are recurring in her teachings :

• The body is an extension of Spirit.
• We are a projection of our higher self.
• The importance of appreciation
• The importance of focusing on positive things
• Being guided by our feelings 
• Being in alignment
• Freedom
• We are blocking, unblocking (resisting) source

Much like the I-Ching is composed of yang/light or yin/dark line - we are letting the source/light through or blocking/resisting it in our life.

Teal Scott also wrote a book : "The Sculptor in the Sky"

I like her teaching very much. Every video ends with me very peaceful and smiling.

Trees

I remember when I was playing AD&D as a Dungeon Master ; the goal was to create an environment encouraging players to be active, it was sometime tricky to find the right balance between the boring sequence "open a door, fight monster, open chest, collect gold" and the too directive over complex campaign where the players would just follow external events and get to fight a bit, while the real events were done by non-player characters (NPC).

Now there was a lot of interesting session where the events actually just happened purely on the player's interaction - and that was for the DM a way to relax, and just act as an arbiter ; it was like watching a theatre play, and let the event unfold.

There was this time when the group went back from a castle, many were wounded, and tired, all the spell casters had nearly exhausted all their scrolls, spells and potions and then the rogue/thief suddenly decided it would be the perfect time to steal a bit of stuffs, just because the big guns had all the treasure and the rogue couldn't put his hands on any magic item, gems, potion etc ...

That was pretty intense when the Paladin leader was back stabbed by that rogue (who by the way had a very good luck playing dice) - he successfully hid in the shadow and perform a quadruple damage with his poisonous dagger. That was the beginning of a terrible incident that got the entire group into a crisis and after another series of internal fight (because as I said earlier many characters were already weaken) everybody but the rogue were dead.

It wasn't in the DM's plan, it wasn't planned at all - but it happened.

The DM isn't the almighty ruler ; the players have their role to play (hence the game name) - and this made me think about life in general.

About good and evil especially ; since that rogue/thief was playing along fine during the "official" planned part - but then took a final opportunity to kill and steal an entire group of friends, out of greed.

The entire group had went through tremendous obstacles, traps and monsters but the worst enemy who would eventually got them was inside the group.

It's a bit like looking back at human history and realizing that thousand of years earlier we were fighting wild animals, went through terrible diseases, cold, famine, and when finally when human started to get comfortable with electricity, water, cars, factories, and relatively not many threats - then appears this final worst enemy - himself.
 
Between good and evil, there is the neutral Path - the Path of nature, of the trees.
Reading Rudolf Steiner I got this understanding that during Earth evolution - during the Lemurian period (I think, but I might be wrong) Earth was bearing fruits - that were linked to her during all their life cycle, totally in harmony with her -- and that fruit was the first human : Adam.

Since we have lost this connection with the Earth, she hardened (or that is just her normal evolution) - and we are know battling each other. We did discover the knowledge of Good and Evil, in my last post I asked if we would know this would generate the mess we're in now - would anybody eat that from that forbidden tree ? but today I realized we had to, in order to evolve.

Triumph of the Ego

In my previous post Rudolf Steiner got me thinking about that concept of "War of all against all" - (which could totally be the current "War on Terror" meme that is in itself a paradox)

It's basically a "war of the ego against other ego" - a war based on the funny idea that my ego is better than yours, my opinion is the only valid one, you're wrong and I'm right.

But since there is quite a huge difference between a man that has been restricted from doing a particular thing, and a man's conscious choice of not doing that thing.
There is confrontation, friction, conflict, war.

Because this has always been the work of Patriarchal system ego to forbid things to the common/lesser man, with the irrational excuse that it's for their own good.
And therefore the layman is kept as a child level.

You can't do this, you can't do that or else ... harsh punishment.


When government or church or any established patriarchal system is forbidding somebody to drink alcohol for example, it only tickle the interest of people to drink, same apply for pre-marital sex, watching porn, smoking pot ...

Prohibition never worked.

Now when a man has had enough of drinking alcohol, using drugs, watching porn, etc ... he comes to his senses and decide on his own accord to stay away from that stuffs ; because he knows that this makes him utterly dependent and sick in his body, head and so on.

The challenge today isn't about accepting our weaknesses, acknowledging them - and pro-actively deciding not to fall for their "charms" (for lack of a better word).

I'm always a bit annoyed when somebody says something like "you shouldn't watch pornography" - because maybe I need to experience it for a while, everything eventually wear off.

Somebody trespassing and giving advices that weren't asked is robbing the other individual of his independence, his inner freedom, his growth.

The Egocentric/Selfish stage: On a global scale we have the current situation, the world as a place of suffering and injustice due to the actions of those in power. Accelerating destruction of ecosystems, mass extinction, human survivors eking out a miserable existence, peak oil, no second industrial revolution, out with a whimper, not a bang. In the larger physical universe: entropy, meaninglessness, the universe tending inexorably to heat death; the world and the cosmos that has to be transformed.

 And that transformation is the taming of the Ego, not necessarily the complete surrendering of the Ego, but the pro-active choice of  using the independence and inner freedom to work for a better world a common good.

Apocalypse of John: Lecture VIII:This “I” is the cause of man's directing all his wishes to the satisfaction of this “I” as such. Its striving to draw to itself as its own possession a part of the earth which belongs to all, to drive away all the other Egos from its realm, to fight then, to be at war with them, is one side of the “I.” But on the other hand the must not forget that the “I” is at the same time that which gives man his independence and his inner freedom, which in the truest sense of the word elevates him. His dignity is founded in this “I,” it is the basis of the Divine in man.

Prohibition never worked.

Back in the garden of Eden God forbids Adam and Eve to eat from the fruit of the Tree of the knowledge of good and evil, and of course they have to eat it.

Now after knowing the consequences, and after living a bit in the mess we are all in, with an informed mind ... would you eat that fruit ?

As warm water dissolves salt

What if I told you that Rudolf Steiner back in 1908 was talking about the Ascension - not namely the 2012 Ascension - but nevertheless an Earth Ascension. That would probably blow your mind.

Steiner was also talking about how the moon had to be separated from the Earth before the Atlantian period - it's in the same Lecture, both links are given below.

I'm really impressed by Rudolf Steiner insights.

In master Tony "Ascension Guide" (which I refer a lot lately in this blog) - It's written that people with High-frequencies will ascend (in 4th Dimension), and that matter somehow will dissolve. And those who wishes to stay on Earth (called 3D) will have to leave (die) and will re-appear on a similar 3D planet to continue exploring the World of duality, to express the self.

My current feeling after this last finding, is that this 2012 Ascension will not happen abruptly, but the period for this Ascension process will definitely start now (it might have already started). This looks like it's going to be a slow process.

The "war of all against all" seems to be on the agenda too, unfortunately.

After all, we're talking about 26,000 years in each transition - that's a lot of time.

Advices for my 10 year-old self

If I were able to go back in time to visit my ten year-old self, I would give myself a book the "Tao Te Ching" with some additional words :

- Love yourself, no matter what the other are saying, be nice and loving with yourself and do your best to love everybody and everything
- People are eventually only interested in themselves ; so don't take what they say too seriously

- Avoid noisy, greedy, gross, and violent people
- We're not here on Earth to stay, it's just a step - so again don't take things too seriously
- If somebody hurts you, take the lesson and leave
- Do what you WANT in life, do not follow anybody's advice on what you should or shouldn't be doing
- Be organized (make list, write a journal, ...)
- Always learn new things, read lots of books - don't take anything for sure ; feel how this new knowledge is affecting you, evaluate the wisdom in it, search Enlightenment.
- Make times for yourself alone in the quiet to study the Tao Te Ching and meditate
- Be yourself and trust yourself
- Each and everyone has a specific path to follow, none of these paths is the best but your own - that's why when somebody is giving you advices (even with the best intentions), he's only giving advices that fit mostly his own path.
- When a teenager, don't worry too much about masturbation ; it's just a phase in life - learn to love, don't focus too much on the sex.
- When adult, remember the dream you had when you were a child - try to stay faithful to your inner child.
- Be cautious of the dominant religion/culture, learn from the other movements (native Indian wisdom, shaman, druid, minorities ... because they're the one who suffered and usually they know best)
- Learn how to ask question
- Be careful what you eat, think, listen, watch and read this affect you consciously and unconsciously  
- Learn to use the I-Ching
- Be open in your mind, don't judge too fast.
- Be like water, do not hold on things or beliefs - nothing is for certain (science can't answer every question, and there's more than what is visible, ...)
- Be in the center and be balanced in your passion
- Don't fall for the politician, the army recruiter, the banker, and the priest they're mostly here to use you ; stay away from them with respect.
- The real enemies are fear and ignorance, if anybody is playing on your fears, or take advantage of your ignorance be very careful : they're working some trick on you.
- Try to understand what is light, love, truth, space and time.

Then I'll tap myself on the back, telling me gently to (at least) talk to that girl I had a crush on (because otherwise I'll always regret not doing so) - then as a final note, I'll write down reddit.com on a piece of paper and ask myself to promise me not to spend too much time on this website when this will be online later on something we will call "the internet". 

This was inspired by this blog entry

Memories of God  : If I were able to go back in time to visit my ten year-old self, I would befriend myself and let him in on these secrets. And I'd teach him how to make fun of idiots -- it took me a while beginning at that age, and some help would have sped things up a bit and made life more bearable. I think I'd visit my parents and a few adults, too, and have a little talk with them about these things and the kid hiding out alone, confused, while they went about their marital and personal conflicts. Or maybe not. Perhaps I'd just give the kid a clue about how to take care of himself better -- because I can't imagine my life now without that period and the freedom to explore all things that came with it... though I'd not recommend it to others because, all things being equal, I was very fortunate.

Less Thoughts More Action

The theory behind the Pole Shift is that the Earth will reverse North and South Pole in a very short time period. This phenomenon is pictured in the Movie 2012.

As always it's all about spreading doom and gloom -- for my little science understanding pole shifts already happened in the past and the current one  has been already in process for many years, because the magnetic field weakens (a known fact) but this will take hundreds (thousands?) of years to reach completion.

Edgar Cayce also mentioned a Pole shift in his prophecy.


Survive Pole Shift has more than 1,000 likes on facebook.

Another consequence of this Pole shift and the Earth being less "magnetized" is the fact that things will get lighter and lighter - and a side-effect would be that we will be able to perform more actions, while our thoughts would become more scarce - a phenomenon called "Less thoughts more action" explained by Paramahamsa Nithyananda.

This could be argued, discussed and criticized but many ground breaking news are challenging our understanding on a daily basis - and is pushing us in the very limit of our reason, because really what do we know for sure ?

63,000-Year-Old Modern Human Skull Found in Laos | Anthropology | Sci-News.com: The scientists used uranium/thorium dating to determine the age of the skull, which they determined was about 63,000 years old.

Yes, we may all be living in the Matrix, say physicists | TG Daily: Yes, we may all be living in the Matrix, say physicists

We just have to wait and see

Orgasms & destruction

There was a time in my life, when I had a tough time, and the only thing that kept my head above the water was a little dvd - "Cruisin' Jennaville"...

I can remember that introduction almost by heart

Hi, I'm your tour guide Jenna Jameson, in Jennaville you're in control : you can go up and down, you can pick up one of the most amazing chicks and you can even choose their outfit.

Alexa Rae was particularly alluring in the dvd.

And what a bad surprise to see that "Peach dvd" is now out of business ?!

After that there's 2 things I can tell to you audience, first these women are a blessing, seeing their body is very therapeutic and will heal many wounds - and second you have to actually buy an erotica dvd - this has to be mandatory for all men - Like a "rite of passage" because watching porn for free, isn't the way to go - pay your respect and buy their merchandise, be respectful and pay homage to their beauty and grace.

In role playing games, an enchantress acts like a magician woman who would subdue and take control over a male - turning him into a obedient henchman. Why would the man give up his own guidance, and follow order from an enchantress ? just to stay in contact with her, to be able to gaze upon her day and night - the price to pay is unfortunately to obey that mistress, hoping that she wouldn't be so bad to ask for mischievous actions.

On the other side of the stick, the women are rarely "charmed" by men or wizard - also powerful men can attract women ; women are keeping their head cool, and are able to go away fast if things go wrong.

As archetypical situation you would have the strong barbarian savage supercharged with pure testosterone falling for a semi naked enchantress that will use the barbarian to defend her against the players team while fondling his shoulders.
A tough situation to overcome for the group, because they don't want to "damage" their best friend with valuable fighting.

Another situation would be a cunning aristocratic illusionist who would subjugate a female druid or cleric pretending to love her -- and forcing the entire team to tag along for a campaign.

In both case, when the so called lover would realize he or she has been duped, the consequences would be quite devastating.

But nevertheless, better is to have loved and lost than to have never loved.

Book of Revelation

Dolores Cannon speaks about 2012, and it's very similar to what Master Tony has said in his "Ascension Guide".

The Earth will basically split in 2 (like a cell divides) - the old one will not be aware of the other, will perpetuate his Karma and will eventually disappear -- and the new one is ascending.


The Mayan (and many Indians civilizations) have already shifted in the past by raising their vibrations.

Read the Book of Revelation - "those who are left behind".

Dolores confirms the fact that many star-seeds have volunteered to help during the ascension, she also confirms the presence of angels (or guide) by our side (in other videos).

Angel Academy

During a role playing session the arbiter (Dungeon Master (DM)) not only would play the opponents (various monsters) but could play a character (or several) himself (we called it/them Non Player Character (NPC)) - this/these characters would be within the player group and help the campaign get more interesting, getting more confusing or helpful depending on what the DM would wish the direction to be.


During the video talk above between  Lilou Macé and Matt Kahn - I briefly noted the discussed concepts and where I've heard them before (and from whom) :
An infinity of Parallel Earths -- Bashar
Planet Earth is an "Angel Academy" -- Rudolf Steiner
Frequency as a key for ascension -- Master Tony
Universe confirms whatever you affirm -- The Secret
The daily need of clearing -- Ho'oponopono

Let go of the ego (an excitation of the nervous system, because of the none release of feelings) ; living in the now (the permanent "I don't know") -- Eckhart Tolle
Download of energies -- various channellers
Words (and any sounds I assume) are the way of communicating frequencies

No comparison, not trying to assume how the society is perceiving you
What I give to other I receive to myself -- The Secret
Make peace with the past
What advices you wish you would have been told
These are the advices you could (should) give to every person you know (or meet)

A mid-wife is an assistant, a catalyst
Becoming nothingness (not being the body, not the mind)

God becoming a person (see my comment in italic above)

Who am I!

Alan Watts is teaching this as a trick to the mind as well, Sudevi (Ma Nithya Sudevi) is giving a very good explanation here on this video.

On a side-note as a former player of "Role playing game (RPG)", this intriguing question resonates in me in a special way. Since during RPG session every player could play a specific character, and in another play a different character, and then another, etc ... it's still the same player (a form of higher self) - and the arbiter's role (Dungeon Master or DM) is just to make sure every player and their character are obeying the rules, and the whole exercise is just about having fun.

Alan Watts (in another video) is re-introducing this very question in (I think) a way to trigger you into a mind blowing realization, we are an attempt of the whole Universe to explore itself.

This crazy realization is coming back again and again - like a complex fractal entity, the entire Universe woke up and sent infinite numbers of entity through himself to understand himself.

To actually answer the same question : Who am I?

It kind of reminds me of a similar story with a different twist called "The Egg" (found on reddit).

Which Star do I Come From?

Here's a video of Sudevi (Ma Nithya Sudevi)- she had an awakening and found out she was an Arcturian (like Master Tony) starseed.

Her story is very impressive, it seems that mastery of time, sacred geometry and a very noble sense of the sacred are (among many other I supposed) attributes of the Arcturian.

On my last post, my final notes were :

My work so far is pretty much organizing information, sorting, checking sources, searching for similarities, and keeping an open mind.

And during one of Sudevi video - where she describe the various levels in the Spritiual Path - I know now that I'm a "seeker".


I really, really enjoy Sudevi's video (and her blogs) she's such an inspiration.

While I see in more other videos she made, I'll post more about this amazing person. Because I feel so much empathy toward her. She's so young and already so mature and another incredible thing about her is that when I have a question in the back of my mind, very often while watching her Q&A video she's answering that particular question.

Like when she gave that helpful way to distinguish if a vision or guru is genuine or not, just to ask "who Jesus is" point blank - because in the Bible 1John4 - it says :

Beloved, believe not every spirit, but try the spirits whether they are of God: because many false prophets are gone out into the world. 2 Hereby know ye the Spirit of God: Every spirit that confesseth that Jesus Christ is come in the flesh is of God: 3 And every spirit that confesseth not that Jesus Christ is come in the flesh is not of God: and this is that spirit of antichrist, whereof ye have heard that it should come; and even now already is it in the world.

I used it to question the I-Ching (which I use daily) and was astounded to get a very definitive and positive answer.

Discoveries so far

When I discovered the "Ascension Guide" I tried to gather as many information as possible afterward, I found out that the author (Master Tony) is an Arcturian star-seed.

So far as much as possible I read and practice what was inside the guide and started meditating, changed my diet, got rid of TV, and most entertainment (I still struggle to diminish my reddit addiction).

And even though, some predictions that drastic "World changes" would be perceived by September (regarding the Ascension process) didn't seem to happened (at least not in the medias) -- this guide had a very good impact overall. Thanks for that Master Tony wherever you are.

Now this guide also introduces me to a whole lot of new paradigms - and just like Philip K. Dick I made the same conclusion he had after reading Plato.

In college I was given Plato to read and thereupon became aware of the possible existence of a metaphysical realm beyond or above the sensory world. I came to understand that the human mind could conceive of a realm of which the empirical world was epiphenomenal. Finally I came to believe that in a certain sense the empirical world was not truly real, at least not as real as the archetypal realm beyond it. At this point I despaired of the veracity of sense-data.

-- Philip K. Dick

Which lead me into discovering Rudolf Steiner, who has even more mind blowing new paradigms in his books (and many are available online for free). Especially his book "Knowledge of the higher worlds and its attainment" - which introduces a lot of new data about Etheric/Astral body and super sensible Worlds.

And later I stumbled upon the Pleiadian author Barbara Marciniak - and for many reasons felt like a strong connection with the family of Light. I might be confused, but the emotional element was there when I read and heard the message. This whole sensation that I've been planted on Earth for a mission, with my memories erased, and I'm waiting for a "signal" while longing for a distant World I used to be in, seems real to me.


Pleiadian star-seed Gigi Young is writing about recent palpable changes regarding Channeling  :

The veils thin and the energetic soup around us continues to magnify and as this happens we draw closer to our highest expression. All that is not congruent with that expression will be experienced as pain. As we release this pain we become lighter and more coherent. Through this process we gain stronger intuition and a clear channel to our higher self.

If I'm not mistaken this "higher self" mentioned by Gigi is what Rudolf Steiner in his lecture called "angeloi" and is actually our next step in evolution (after Saturn, Sun, moon and Earth).

For the record : I can't see auras, I can't channel, but there are many synchronicity I experienced (having a question, and receiving the very answer later in the day) I also had many feeling of bliss during meditations (feeling of being lighter (or lifted in the air)).

My work so far is pretty much organizing information, sorting, checking sources, searching for similarities, and keeping an open mind.

Information & Disinformation

It seems that there's no definite answer to a simple question. And that what is now "Information" can turn out to be "Disinformation" later, and vice versa.

Why ?

Would it be possible that there wouldn't be an Universal answer (to any questions but for example the quintessential interrogation "what is the meaning of life ?"), I feel that there's more likely to be a specific answer for you, that wouldn't even fit sometime later.

Because of the element of change in everything.

My current question would be ... How humanity is going to evolve past 2012 ?

After listening to Matias de Stefano a couple of times, I feel that there are a few items that could have been taken from Rudolf Steiner work, and that's the strange core of the all lot of New Age authors (Barbara Marciniak, Michael Tsarion, Master Tony, Terence McKenna, etc ...) there are many similarities, and many are introducing new concepts ...

Rudolf Steiner in his lectures could foresee the downfall of the communist, even though he was discussing about it in 1920. He could foresee the direction the West would take toward materialism, going as far as predicting the incarnation of Ahriman in the West.

Funnily enough Rudolf Steiner is the only one talking about Lucifer and Ahriman - and introducing the concept of a Triad, also pointing to the danger of believing in a too simplistic boolean concept of good and evil, that would allow obscure plot.

About the existence of the soul, about the interaction of the Spirit, and the need for humanity to understand and study occult sciences.


There's more than meet the eyes, that's the first precept.
All of these authors are opening new possibilities, new horizons.
There's nothing to be afraid of except to stay in a ignorant and fearful mindset.

The more I listen or read about any of them, the more I feel that each and everyone's mission here on 3D Earth is to find our own way to communicate with ourselves.
Because it's in the silent meditation of the heart, that answers are given.

There's a lot of work to do,  "shadow work" - exploring our darkness, What I mean by that is : to sit down alone in a quiet room and endure the view of our self in silence, waiting for something to wake-up. An inner voice that hasn't been heard.

This is what I think, that might not be an answer for you.
That might not even work for me, but I'm waiting, welcoming the moment when I will make contact.


How Can I Tell If An Article Is Disinformation?: The ultimate answer will be found within your own discernment. In other words, if it sounds like the truth to you, then it probably is. Like Gandhi said, “Even if you are the minority of one, the truth is still the truth.” Your higher self and your discernment will always lead you in the right direction, even if it sometimes feels like you are taking the wrong path. When we choose the longer of two paths, we end up learning some of the best lessons in life and this path usually ends up being a blessing.