What do you see, when you close your eyes ?

As far as my first OBE experience, after reading a couple of chapter from Albert Taylor's book - I think it would be beneficial first to become aware during dreams.

As an exercise given by Albert Taylor, he'd recommend that during the day - we ask ourselves if we're dreaming? and that's now part of my routine to do so.

In current dreams I'm walking in what looks like mud, sometime I'm knee deep in it, sometime just my shoes.

I quite  can confirm that my memory while dreaming, is different than the memories I have when awake - as for example the shoes I was wearing during my last dream have been thrown away long ago (6 or 7 years ago) but I liked them very much.

My behavior in dream also is a bit different from the one I have awake.

Another important thing to develop is Imagination - the ability to invent or form a mental picture.
And another important skill is the ability to hold the focus, discipline thoughts.

Lecture: Man As A Picture of The Living Spirit: Hence it is interesting to see a book recently published by a Cingalese, an Indian of Ceylon, The Culture of Souls among the Western Nations, wherein the author says to the Europeans, in effect: Since the Middle Ages your knowledge of the Christ has died out. No longer have you any real knowledge of the Christ, for he alone who can look up into the spiritual world can have real knowledge of the Christ. Hence you must first let teachers come to you from India, from Asia, to teach you Christianity again. You can actually read it in this book. A Cingalese Indian says to the Europeans: Teachers must come to you from Asia; they will be able to tell you what Christ really is. Your European teachers no longer know it.

Out of Body Experience

It feels for me as an Out of Body Experience is the next step.

I still feel that I'm stuck now - having read all these materials (from Master Tony's guide, Rudolf Steiner, Terence McKenna, Sudevi and lately Teal Scott) - it's like all theory and no practice.

This afternoon I tried, sit down in a relative dark room and set my intent to leave the body and be aware of the experience, then closed my eyes and imagined a sky - this was short - I just felt dizzy after a while when my mind relaxed a bit. Also felt like my body was unwilling to let go - and my mind was struggling as well.

I might buy Albert Taylor's book "Soul Traveler"

The vision faded

The coming of the ego was no accident, the Universe needed man to see himself separated from the whole.

Man being immersed in the illusion of separateness : he became lost in the maya.

This has a purpose, this is a necessary step in the evolution.

How can you know that smoking is bad ? because you smoked a lot, and saw it for yourself.

Now I see life in 3D as a flow of energy -- it comes and pass through everybody, and we all let pass this energy, or we resist it. It's all a giant pipe work.

There's little fun in role playing if the player know the campaign already, the fun comes with the surprises, the challenges, the riddles, the unknown.

But is there Freedom really ?

When you're playing a specific class (e.g : Paladin) with pre-determined alignment (Lawful Good) - in many situation you're supposed to act very rigidly, compared to a thief (Chaotic by nature) -- the freedom in D&D isn't about opening doors on the left or on the right then fight the monster in the room and get his treasure, this kind of boring campaign are the one that can be emulated by computer (through World of Warcraft, Age of Conan etc ...) where the only goal is to amass treasure and level up.

But you can feel the emptiness of any quests, the shallowness of materialism.

You don't learn anything, you just get better at playing that little insignificant part the computer lets you play.

The real fun of role playing is closer to acting, performing for a limited audience, but nevertheless.

If his character is leveling up and has many magic items the players behind aren't rewarded by anything - but when throw playing the character is set into interesting situations, and the emotions is there, that lead to the discovery of more than the character but the player's true face. While there isn't any bravery, any real combat, any real foe, or reward ... what is real is just the game.

Rudolf Steiner is repeating the same thing over and over, humanity is more than his physical aspect - materialism isn't an end to itself - the materialistic world we're living in - is not the goal.

Mankind will only thrive when it will focus on Spirituality.

If we take the character of Christ Jesus as an example, he didn't use his formidable talents to gain power or riches, his mission was to point in the sky direction and show us the real value of Life on Earth.

His message is eternal, while we're not ready to hear it - we can only embrace the religious aspect - the limited version that push people into churches hoping that somehow it will help the day we die to go to heaven.

But when we're ready Christ message is way more powerful, revolutionary completely mind blowing, Earth shattering - Love is the key, Love is what we're made of. And we either allow it or we resist it, that's all we do.

Lecture: Man As A Picture of The Living Spirit: Long, long ago, in an instinctive atavistic clairvoyance, mankind had vision and perception of these things. The vision faded. If he had kept it, man could never have grown free. The ancient vision was therefore darkened. In compensation, the Mystery of Golgotha came into earthly life. A sublime Being from the population of the Sun came to Earth.

--Rudolf Steiner

Diego

Ego is the result of evolutionary process - Ego is an illusion of separateness.
But without the Ego, there would be neither enlightenment nor awakening
In a previous time (Rudolf Steiner talks about Atlantean time) humanity had no ego and we lived in a "Golden Age"

This current period which comes to an end has discovered the ego - and this is introduced in the Bible by the "Original Sin" or as the "Fall".
It's the human ability to think for himself.
This doesn't mean necessary only bad things - without it there would be no language, no transmission of knowledge, no philosophy, and cultures, in a way no civilization.

We approach the end, because the Ego is now acting more and more pervasively - with a constant, permanent (and mostly useless) voice in the head.

The next stage is going beyond the ego - taming the ego.

Becoming responsible thinkers by remembering who we really are as human.

(This is more or less the transcript of the video above - in case the video is put down)

Etheric

Today I'll try to be more positive

What ideal situation would I prefer to the current one ?
What changes could I bring into the current situation that would drastically be beneficial ?

I dream of a clear room with just a computer and no distractions.
On the computer a text editor and a browser.
And I would write - and I would publish a book.

There would be silence and work.

But then I'll have to eat, require toilet breaks and some sleep.
That would be the bare minimum.

What if I won't publish any book.
Who cares anyway ?

I feel the need to write ; it helps putting my thoughts in order.

Since I wrote my advices to my 10 years old self - I keep thinking about reincarnation and the funny twist where I would stumble upon my old blog after I reincarnate and be able to read my ramblings from a past life.

Now, I see the act of writing as posting some clues to my future self. And it feels liberating.

To the point.

Be yourself!

How would I know this blog was myself from a past life ?!
I guess this would help - a pass-phrase from my current life - that wouldn't make any sense for anyone else - like an inside joke that I would be able to transfer from one life to another.

Something so personal, that reading it I would laugh and cry at the same time, and the eyes filled with tears would see in this so much of myself that it would be exhilarating.

Here goes, this is for me reader from the future : "Vitakava!"

I'll let you laugh and cry for now.


Lecture: Man As A Picture of The Living Spirit: For there were once upon a time on Earth very advanced Beings — Beings who did not put on physical human bodies as do the men of today. They lived rather in etheric bodies, yet for the men who lived on Earth at that time they were the great leaders and educators.

Recycling

Today I realized that I'm a bit stuck.

Time is flying like crazy, and I see my days passing without me doing anything ; I'm not creating, not writing, not drawing, not painting, not developing.

And I would like to, there's nothing more re-assuring than creating.

I could watch youtube video until I'm all blue in the face, or listening to music, or reading a book... But I'm craving for creation.

If I'm not creating I feel useless, worthless.

And why am I not creating ?
Because I feel that I don't have enough time to create - I'm constantly interrupted ; I just have 1 or 2 hours windows everyday and I feel that this isn't enough.

It's even worse than that - because until I decided to write down that post - I didn't even realized how stuck I was.

It comes all to this : not enough time, and endless irritating issues that are accumulating daily - not important things, just plain annoying little time wasting events that are filling up my days.

Also I realized that I'm obsessing over recycling - I can't throw away plastic box, paper and hold on old stuffs too. I'm hoarding and this is getting crazy.

It's like I'm surrounded by box filled with pizza packaging and plastic bottles.

I can't let go old stuffs, I can't go forward - These aren't negative things, they're just there - but they're accumulating and it seems that I can't breathe.

I guess I need to relax a bit.

A Buddhist Approach to Avoid Accumulation of Defilements - Sakyamuni Sambuddha Vihara (temple in Berwick) and Buddhist Vihara Victoria (Melbourne) Australia: "Don't take anything (negative) into your mind and let it become polluted. Keep them out, shut them out."

“Here is another way of finding inner space: Become conscious of being conscious. Say or think “I Am” and add nothing to it. Be aware of the stillness that follows the I Am. Sense your presence, the naked, unveiled, unclothed beingness. It is untouched by young or old, rich or poor, good or bad, or any other attributes. It is the spacious womb of all creation, all form.”

—Eckhart Tolle, A New Earth

Toward a new beginning

I remember when I was playing AD&D as a Game Master ; one task was to provide the players with a "believable" Universe.

In Chinese the word Universe is literally "space and time" - not only the GM has to provide cities, caves, castle, and other playground but also a time period.

Now to be consistent, the GM need to send the players into a sense of past and future - which means that during a campaign the players are going to defeat monsters and villains and level up. But the time could be elastic, some table away another group might be playing "Call of Cthulhu" and live in the 1920s.

Actually time would very much be related to what the GM and the players remember of what happened ; now if another GM would relay the players and offer them to play another campaign ; the new GM would have to play along, and assume the players are now in a further future. But apart from their levels,  new items and magic sword that the players would show he wouldn't know much of what happened in the parallel campaign.

But what would happen if the same GM would play with a different group of players - that haven't played that specific campaign?

What would happen after we die ?

Couldn't we be sent back in the past, like in the Novel "the Egg" (link found on reddit a while ago)
What if there's only one player in this game named life and this player is You (me) ?

Usually player who have been through a campaign - and died ; won't play the same campaign a second time because they would remember it - don't you find it funny that we are unable to remember our past lifes ?

The ultimate GM is erasing your memories.

Everything is mental, we are dreamed or thought by a Universe (GM) the only challenge for us is that what we call reality is the Universe dreams - we are also dreaming, but somehow we feel that our dreams aren't real ... because they don't last.

Now if during dreaming, you realize you can come back to the same places, and you can act, or change the course of the dream ...

According to Rudolf Steiner during dreams our astral body and ego depart from our physical and etheric body -- what if we are like "baby Universe" and our little dreams are our first stammers.

That would put the "Universe expansion" theory into a mind blowing proportion.

How to Build a Universe That Doesn't Fall Apart Two Days Later: The bulk of the messages elude our attention; literally, after a few hours of TV watching, we do not know what we have seen. Our memories are spurious, like our memories of dreams; the blank are filled in retrospectively. And falsified. We have participated unknowingly in the creation of a spurious reality, and then we have obligingly fed it to ourselves. We have colluded in our own doom.

Discipline

We are what we eat
We are what we drink
We are what we breathe
We are what we think

We have lived too long in our undisciplined thoughts and never recognizing why negative things come into our lives. The negative things in our lives can only be solved when it is recognized, not by presumptuous self-denial.... Can you, the reader, see the connection for yourself?

We are what we project
We are becoming what we want to be

Be careful of your thoughts, for your thoughts become your words.
Be careful of your words, for your words become your actions.
Be careful of your actions, for your actions become your habits.
Be careful of your habits, for your habits become your character.
Be careful of your character, for your character becomes your destiny.
--Author unknown 

Discipline your mind
Reduce your time watching TV


To discipline your mind you need to learn how to better control your thoughts. Positive thoughts call forth inner peace and negative thoughts disturb inner peace.

Start being conscious of what thoughts you're putting in your mind
Start being aware of what you're feeding your mind with

What we think we become

Since I've started to listen to Teal Scott ("Spiritual Catalyst" channel on youtube) ; I  realized how the action of allowing negative thoughts can alter a state of peacefulness - and how ignoring it (not resisting it) can be beneficial.
I'm doing it in a very relaxing way, but I select carefully what I'm going to watch or listen to. Some lectures are beneficial, some aren't.


Remember the 2 wolves.
You always ending up feeding one, so let this be the one you consciously want to feed.

Grim

I had recurrent dream last night, I saw a shaved female - she was in a very dark and dirty room, there was another poor creature being washed, and many other wretched people I couldn't even see - but only this shaved woman.


This was a grim scene - in dreams you feel the scene, there's no introduction, you just know - and for me it felt like this was an execution room - that shaved head woman was waiting her death, she was resigned and afraid.


Now after I woke up - I wondered what was that dream all about and I thought that I could have said to her that she was free - if I had been able to control my emotions, which were as dark as the room.


Appalling is the word.


If I'm ever coming back to that dream my intent is to free those people - to set them free.


And moreover there's something on my mind, the injustice that Mary Magdalene has been victim.
I found many readings where it's pretty clear that she had a major place in Jesus life.
The reason why the church made efforts to remove her from the gospel, and made effort to remove women from the priesthood is quite odd.

The blame of the original fall also falls on Eve - women are suffering because of the lack of men to take responsibilities.

Sure, when a woman is in position of power - things are handled differently.

I've read that among the change 2012 is bringing the women are coming back in strength - the Femen movement comes to mind, many spiritual guides also and it's true that even the men are a bit tired of the patriarchal system.

Gnosis

What is it to be Enlightened ?
Is there life after death ?
Is Reincarnation real ?
What is the Higher self ?
What are Ghosts ?

What is knowing ?
What is a thought ?
Can an idea die ?
What happen when we dream ?
What are dreams ?

Is there other dimensions ?
Is there parallel Universes ?
What is time ?
What is a paradox ?
What is duality ?

Insights into Gnosis: Gnosis in the widest sense is the "discovery" of inner Self as the true "I"

Self Worth

This is above is a video of Teal Scott ; she is known as "Spiritual Catalyst"

Her youtube videos are full of insights and very soothing information.

She is clairvoyant from the beginning ; which is rare - after watching many of her videos, I see a lot of parallel between her knowledge and Rudolf Steiner's teaching (who also was clairvoyant from birth).

Teal explains that before birth we have stated our intentions for this life (even our appearance, our parents etc ...) then we enter Earth and forget everything. Lucky for her, Teal remembered everything (much like Matias de Stefano).

She had a very difficult period in her life during childhood that left scars (which she covers by tattoos), and talks about it retrospectively as something that allow her now (during her workshop) to be able to understand and help people that went through really tough situation.

Teal sees life as a perpetual evolution (even achieving enlightenment isn't an end state) she talks about Astral Travel, multiple dimensions, rising of energies, accessing high frequencies, out of the body experiences, focusing on the positive, she is often talking about source (which could be understood as God or Tao).


During one of her discussion with Dwaine Hartman Teal compares a journey on 3D earth as a roller coaster ride -or entering school (quite similar to Matt Kahn description of Earth as an Angel Academy).

She says that effort (or forcing our-self to do something) isn't a good sign, we should focus instead on doing everything with Joy.

And it is true that in our modern life, if we're good at something we usually (and are encourage to do so) overdo it and become sick of it.

I will take an example (the only way to teach) - if a boy is gifted for music, he will have to play an instrument over and over, then will be encouraged to make concert and become a professional musician and he will get lucky if he's not sick of it.


Themes that are recurring in her teachings :

• The body is an extension of Spirit.
• We are a projection of our higher self.
• The importance of appreciation
• The importance of focusing on positive things
• Being guided by our feelings 
• Being in alignment
• Freedom
• We are blocking, unblocking (resisting) source

Much like the I-Ching is composed of yang/light or yin/dark line - we are letting the source/light through or blocking/resisting it in our life.

Teal Scott also wrote a book : "The Sculptor in the Sky"

I like her teaching very much. Every video ends with me very peaceful and smiling.