To Be in Alignment

To be in alignment

What Does It Mean to Be in Alignment?: Your emotions are the indication of whether the thought you're thinking at this moment is in alignment with the frequency of your desires and Source or out of alignment with your desires and Source. If you think thoughts which are out of alignment with Source, you feel negative emotion. If you think thoughts which are in alignment with source, you feel positive emotion. You are biochemically hardwired to go in the direction of alignment. All you have to do to stay in alignment therefore is to care first and foremost how you feel, choose to think thoughts that feel emotionally good to you and stop focusing on thoughts which feel emotionally bad to think.

Scott, Teal "What Does It Mean to Be in Alignment?." What Does It Mean to Be in Alignment? EzineArticles.com. http://ezinearticles.com/?What-­Does-­It-­Mean-­to-­Be-­in-­Alignment?&id=7135510

Practice

This is currently my focus, and it's simple in some way, and hard at the same time.
I can feel a surge of positive emotions suddenly, to send an email to somebody, then when the computer is started, feel nothing or starting to write the mail and feeling empty.

Another thing, that happen a lot is me questioning the motivations behind my thoughts, and then I realize that many of the things I want to do are motivated by my need for acceptance, and getting approval from people. To get noticed.

After that last realization, I decided to meditate, and tried to do nothing for awhile ; waiting for things to settle down, and to see more clearly how I could be in alignment ; that's when I realized that doing nothing is a nightmare - forcing myself to stay sit for more than an hour is really hard.

I've been practicing meditation daily, every morning (more or less) around 20mn (I don't look at the watch) for about 2 years now. And the chasing of thoughts is something I'm getting better at, especially since I've been introduced to "shadow work" techniques.

But doing nothing, staying still for the purpose of just clearing the way, to let the space of "what is really important" emerges - that's something that gives me trouble ; because, there's a flow of impulses to do all sort of things, washing the dishes, cleaning this, going shopping, cooking, sorting papers, that comes jumping and bouncing like little crazy elves ...

Stillness

And then I'm thinking how do other people do ? they just don't stop - nobody stop, the entire humanity is running up and down, talking, arguing, working, traveling, agonizing, dreaming, all the time - but nobody stop -- does this have to do with the proverbial "idleness is the mother of all sins" ?

What's wrong with stillness ? it's the mother of understanding, the mother of gratitude, the mother of thankfulness. Even when we are babies, people have to come and poke us in the stomach, without even realizing it, because we like to see things moving.

Are we afraid of stillness, because it reminds us of death ?

Yesterday I was staring at a piece of marble, and suddenly for the first time I was watching it - it's like something clicked in me, before I was looking, but a few seconds later I was appreciating what was in front of me, I liked the textures, the spots of colors, the complexity of the patterns, I was present at that moment, it felt good.

It happened after I made some hypothesis on what could be my purpose in life, I retraced my life like everything was a conscious choice of me during all these past years to come to that moment. For example, I said to myself I choose my mother because she was a teacher, and my father because he was smart, then I choose to be born there, and it all pushed me into a catholic school where I was taught things that insulted my intelligence, but I choose to believed them - then it lead me to various boring jobs with no particular interest, which lead me to push everything aside, and to dig into spirituality and then to finally after all these years spent in the darkness of ignorance, to walk the path toward truth, things are starting to make sense, the light is entering. I welcome the light, I'm craving for more knowledge ...

It was like my life was built with the contrast of total immersion in ignorance and suffering and now (after 2010) knowledge and  healing. It's still very much a work in progress, but I felt that way, and then I saw what was in front of me (the marble).

And now I'm seriously thinking to write a "love" letter to Teal Scott.