Mass and energy

I may have said that the Universe was made of energy - but actually the Universe is made up of two things : particles and energy.

Let's first delve into particles.

There are two types of particles, fermions and bosons.  

Fermions are what we call matter. They have all the properties we normally associate with matter, like having mass and taking up space. Two fermions cannot be in the same place at the same time. Scientifically, a fermion is any particle that has half integer spin.

Bosons are also particles, and they have whole integer spin. Bosons are particles, but don't behave like matter at all. A whole bunch of them can be in the same place at the same time. For instance, the most "famous" boson is the photon, the light particle. As a rule, bosons are the "mediator" particles: photons are responsible for electromagnetic force, gravitons for gravity, etc.

Both fermions and bosons are particles, only fermions are matter. It turns out, a property of particles is that most particles have mass (except for the photon, the only massless particle).

Thus all the fermions have mass, this is one of their properties.
Making up the other half of the universe (well, in fact a lot more than half. There is a lot more energy than matter out there, but I regress) is energy.

This feeling of being "Dead Inside"

No desire

It seems that I'm stuck again, don't know what to do - and don't feel like doing anything really either.
I've just realized that from my previous job I inherited a core belief that all customers are bad ; and this isn't helping me in my Freelance job.
I tend to refuse most jobs now - always a good excuse, but that isn't getting me nowhere
Or is it ?
I sure have plenty of time for  my own projects, things I enjoyed doing - except that lately, my enjoyment seems to be fading away.
I know my mood has changed, because video I used to enjoy watching - like Teal Scott's channel ; seems now boring. But how can this be ? Teal use to be for me the most joyful spiritual help.

Searching for meaning

Instead of searching for the root cause (I suspect something, but need this to mature a bit) ; I'm trying to look for a way to move away from this feeling of being utterly useless. Last night I couldn't remember my dream. It's like I haven't had one.
A dreamless night - that doesn't make sense.
Actually more and more things don't make sense.
It's like I'm back in my old way of looking at invoices and chores, and the repetition of days without the joy inside, without the will to learn new things - Everything seems to have lost his glitter.
I've been reading many self help books like "Feel the fear and ... do it anyway" from Susan Jeffers maybe that's the counter effect ?!
This feeling doesn't have anything to do with fears (or is it?)
More like a "why bother?!" mood about everything ; if I have to wait for something, what is it ?
Maybe that's my old unfulfilled desire to experience an OBE ?
But lately I felt that this wasn't that important - something else is dragging me down.
Maybe I'll just take a nap.

Transitions

What do we know so far

I'll list everything I've read and heard even the most absurd
- It's just a ride, we are actually living in a virtual reality, a school, an academy
- we are not just our body, but are a physical manifested ego of an higher self (that some are actually calling "God")
- Being immersed in an hologram, a fractal universe everything is made of the same thing over and over, this Universe is energy, in various shape and form and multidimensional.
- Every thought transforms reality ; every interaction is potentially creating something new, and every desires is definitely pushing us forward.
- The nature of time has never really been understood so far
- There are other reality, within this Universe ; other "dimensions"
- Some dimensions are also physical but some are non physical - like the dream-world
- The "Dream dimension" is an interesting place where we are at the being level "conscious" and go through experiences like we would watch a movie ; but with some experience we can awake during the dreams and then enter another state called "Lucid dreaming".
In this non physical place everything is possible, there's no time delay between a desire and his manifestations.

- After 2012 we have left the Iron Age (the old energy) and we are now in the Aquarius Age (the new energy)
- There's a shift going on and it will lead us into this new Age.
- Within this new energy, the feminine and the masculine are going to adjust (finally!).

How to help the transition?

Open your mind, keep a journal.
Changing your diet (to get rid of meat, sugar and artificial flavor also fluoride).
Meditating daily, entering that silent place where the mind can rest.
Being patient, honest, rigorous, and focused....